Do You Know What I Mean?

So – I’m falling in love with you –

and I’m going to need for you not to die –

do you know what I mean?

This past year I lost my best mate, my mother, and a childhood friend

- and two weeks ago, I lost the friend I first told I was gay

(the first time my mouth uttered these words) –

he died – he took his own life –

and this story isn’t fiction

I’m going to need for you not to die

So, yes – I’ll go to the restaurant with you –

and I’ll hold your hand while we walk around the grounds at the carnival –

but, I’m going to need for you to be careful –

I’m going to need for you not to die –

I’m falling in love with you – and I’m going to need for you not to die -

do you know what I mean?

I see you crossing the road – look both ways – please

Wear a seatbelt, make sure there is proper air in the tires –

they need to grip in the wet –

I’m not telling you what to do (I’m really not), but more vegetables than ice cream will be good for your health

No cell phone at the gas pumps –

and no bungie jumping or high rock climbing –

no skating on the ice unless it’s mid-season

and no over-drinking or occasional drug use –

Take my hand – I promise to hold yours tightly –

and I will not let go until you instruct me to do so

I’m going to need for you to be safe –

Keep close watch on campfires and fireworks –

and listen to your doctor – she is paying attention – listen to her

I’m going to need for you not to die –

do you know what I mean?

Don’t die

I’m going to need for you not to die

I’m falling in love with you – do you understand?

And I’m going to need for you not to die –

and I’m going to need for you to promise me you won’t –

Because I can’t take that again –

I can’t have that happen -

not again

Do you know what I mean?

Photo: An empty chair

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