“John, John, John –
oh, your name is neil… okay then…
I'm Jimmy - since we're giving our real names.
And, no, I don’t take American Express –
And, yes, I am 18 (no need to worry) –
yeah, I know I look younger.”
(and you like us that way, don't you?)
“Yes, I think your jokes are funny - it is the reason I laugh at them (ya know?)
So – yeah – we maybe could be together in a different world –
one where I’m not 16 (did I say 16 - oops… I meant 18) –
because I naturally enjoy the company of men many years my senior…”
“John, John, John – oh, that’s right (I’m sorry) –
that’s right – yes, John - your name is neal
I’m Jimmy with a hollow and empty heart – what (?)– what’s that (?) –
no I didn’t say anything –
yes, I enjoy designer wear – you bought that for me (!?)”
Oh, you shouldn’t have – but, I’m glad you did –
“come here, you…” (I plant a masculine kiss upon his wrinkled and sagging cheek)
[I noticeably blush and outwardly smile (because that is what I do)]
“Yes, I can be 16 (er, 18 – I did it again – that’s right, I’m 18)
and fall in love with an older man –
yes, neil – is that with an ‘ei” or an “ea”? –
yes, I can jump in the shower to be a wet little Scottish boy –
yeah, I can do that –
yes, I understand - you like to look at me in my wet underwear –
yeah, I can do that
yes, John – yeah, neal…I can do that”
[I hate you – I hate you with every thought – with every breath - and you don’t even know it –
how can you not know it?]
“come here, you…
come here you nasty little pig…
come here little piggy…”
“Tell me I’m nasty – tell me I’m dirty (!)” (neil/neal speaks)
“SHUT UP – did I tell you you could speak, little pig (?) –
you’ll keep your little pig mouth shut…”
and, yes, you are nasty –
and, yes, you are dirty –
“you’re a dirty little piggy in the mud…”
“Oink dirty little pig (!) – I said Oink, little piggy! –
I said OINK (!!!!)”
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“John, John, John” [how do you not know I hate you?] –
“Oh – that’s right (I’m sorry) – neil –
John, your name is neal…
a strong and bold and manly name…
is that with an ‘ei” or an ‘ea”?”
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My fingers curl up to form a fist –
as John – er, as neal - smiles and relaxes…
"bend over the bed dirty little piggy", I say
And dirty little piggy does as he is told…
I curl up my fingers to make a fist
And it begins…
Photo: Jimmy Broccoli.
